If love was exchangable,
I would do so with your love
in a second without
h e s i t a t i o n .
Who would want such a
false sense of admiration,
with each
lying
word
you breathe into my ears.
But now I wonder,
can you love, do you have it
inside of you to do so?
Or maybe your heart
has shriveled and perished
into oblivion,
Never to be touched by
any soul again.
Perhaps it is isolation
you seek since you are
So high up
in your kingdom.
Then it shall be
s o l i t u d e
that befriends you
in this god forsaken world.
For I have given up
on this love
that perhaps never was
or ever happened.
~ I'm a sarcastic bitch ~ I grew up in Cleveland Ohio ~I punch anyone who calls it "The Mistake by the Lake" ~ My best skill is sleeping ~ I am a member of the Grammer Police ~ When I have trouble falling asleep, I read the begining of Robinson Crusoe (Daniel Defoe) and I am put right to sleep by the sluggish pace and boring syntax ~ I'm Byzantine Catholic, and proud ~ I dont understand why people bash me right when they find out I am a religious person, and they dont even know me ~ I attended the same school as lordoffireVIII, but now we both transfered to seperate universities. ~ LoyalBrowncoat5 is my bestest friend, and I call her WAY too often...
Current Residence: a cardboard box Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite Movies
LOTR, the Big Animal
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
the classics - Deep Purple, ACDC, Jimmy, Beatles, Boston, Black Sabbath, Audioslave, etc
I had several paragraghs written, but then I erased them. Just know that I will never commit suicide, but that I just want everything to stop. I want to go and live in a hole where no one can hurt me, and the past is erased. I cant wait until it is my time to die, because I will shed no more tears. I will heave no more sobs. And I will not have to deal with this shit.
Shit is just hitting the fan. I quit my private university in part to help take care of my grandmother again. I went to her house that daytohelp my mom. And then she died right there in the living room. I seriously think that my grief is now manifesting in physical symptoms, and I don't think I can stand another day of feeling like I'm going to hurl. I think I would feel better after I threw up, but the only problem is that I can't hurl. It is actually vey difficult for me to throw up, and when I have tried in the past, I end up dry heaving and not being able to stop - which is scary because you can't breathe... I actually discovered this wit
When I think of this phrase I think of a lot of recent things in my life.
Recently I said I was not going back to the college that I had thought I wanted to go to, which crushed my mother (and friends and other relatives) and I havent even told my firends from that university yet...
I am in the process of getting a job at a nursing home, which is hard for me because I do not like people. Seriously. People are generally horrible, moody, bodily functions kinda gross me out, and I hate interacting with people. And, I do not smile which pisses bosses off.
My sister is leaving for Italy and Greece in less than six hours and I find it really ha
For this photo: мυєη¢нєη - ѕтα¢нυѕвяυηηєη I appreciate very much that you like my work. ♥ ♥ ♥ For you a wonderful and pleasant Wednesday Evening! ♥ ♥ ♥
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thanks for collecting Master Chief... lol i think i just wanted to say "collecting Master Chief" ... not that i'm not thankful, i'm very thankful ... right. *cough*